04/21/17
Day 38
Extreme Accountability Challenge
Total weight loss to date 31.2 pounds
For so many years, I’ve tried so many diets. Losing 10 or 20 pounds, only to gain it all back and more. Once I lost 43 pounds, but fell off the wagon there also and gained and gained and gained to my peak weight of 304 pounds.
Most of the diets weren’t the problem, I was. Ouch! Truthfully I wanted to lose the weight but I didn’t really want to change. I still wanted to eat what and when I wanted and as much as I wanted. My desire to keep the old behaviour explains why I always failed until now. I wanted to be thin but I didn’t really want to change.
A few years ago I heard our pastor at The Journey Church in Yulee, Florida, Darryl E Bellar, preach one of the best sermons I’ve ever heard on John 5.
John 5 1-3
Some time later, Jesus went up to Jerusalem for one of the Jewish festivals. Now there is in Jerusalem near the Sheep Gate a pool, which in Aramaic is called Bethesda and which is surrounded by five covered colonnades. Here a great number of disabled people used to lie—the blind, the lame, the paralyzed. One who was there had been an invalid for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?” “Sir,” the invalid replied, “I have no one to help me into the pool when the water is stirred. While I am trying to get in, someone else goes down ahead of me.” Then Jesus said to him, “Get up! Pick up your mat and walk.”
John 5:1-3, 5-8 NIV
Just think a man that had been an invalid for 38 years, waiting for a miracle all that time and the first thing that Jesus asks is, “Do you want to get well?”
Maybe that’s the question that I should have been asking. The answer for the last 35 years was that I wanted to be thin but really I didn’t want to change.
When I started posting my scales daily on March 15, 2017, that was the day the answer changed, that was the day that I decided that I wanted to get well.
Do you want to to get well?