05/12/17
Day 59 Extreme Accountability Challenge Starting weight 304 pounds
Destination weight 175 pounds
Total weight loss to date 44.2 pounds
84.8 pounds to go
Today the scales moved enough for me to say goodbye to the 260’s. As my weight dropped into the 250’s, there is more of a sense of accomplishment than other days. I guess it’s because I see 10 pound intervals as barriers. It made me think about the barrier that weight has been for me for so many years. The feelings of helplessness regarding getting control of my weight once and for all. I really think that the helplessness centered around double mindedness. I wanted to be healthy, energetic, and thin at the same time that I wanted to eat whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. That was really my dilemma, two completely incompatible realities. I couldn’t have it both ways, something had to give.
I think that the battle that I’ve had with weight has parallels to other areas of struggle.
For change to take place for me, I had to get completely clear about the reality of my current situation and where I was likely headed. That clarity became vivid at 304 pounds and when I saw a picture of myself on Facebook shortly afterwards. I could pretend the problem didn’t exist but really who was I kidding?
Then I had to decide and take action regarding changing my behavior forever. I had to do something that would be so drastic that I would change. The drastic step for me was making a public declaration and posting a picture of my scales daily to Facebook for at least until I reached my goal, if not longer.
The outcome has been unbelievable even to me, this process changed my resolve in a way that I had only dreamed of in the past. What was absolutely terrifying in the beginning, became the most empowering thing that I’ve ever done. I cannot explain, even though I try. I think the only way to understand this is to experience it.
Although I still have a lot of weight to lose, this experience has created a burning desire. The desire to find another barrier and another extreme solution that is just as terrifying and step through that door to get on the other side of another barrier.
I would love to hear your comments of areas of struggle, barriers, where you only dream of one day overcoming those struggles. Please post them in the comments, maybe there’s an opportunity to step out in faith, to take a chance and reach a goal that has eluded you for your whole life. Putting it out there in a simple comment may be your first step to freedom.
Press forward.
175 pounds here I come!!!