06/07/17
Day 85 Extreme Accountability Challenge
Starting weight 304 pounds
Destination weight 175 pounds
Total weight loss to date 55.6 pounds
73.4 pounds to go
For me eating, overeating, and then eating some more has been a comforter. Sometimes it’s true physical hunger, sometimes it’s boredom, sometimes it’s worry, or sometimes it just tastes so good and I want to eat.
I’m not a physician, I’m just trying to understand myself as I move from morbidly obese 5’11” 304 pounds to a healthy, vibrant 175 pounds. Food has never been the enemy but my overeating of food has caused me a lot of emotional and physical pain. What I choose to do with the food is the real issue. The important words are “I choose”. It’s my choice really, the accountability is key but, really I could choose to ignore the accountability and overeat.
Yesterday was a day when the wheels could have come off and I could have derailed this entire process. I didn’t, I chose wisely. It seemed that my entire day was filled with the desire for more food, multiple situations that caused more desire for overeating, but I made it. I chose wisely. From early morning until I went to sleep last night, there was one test after another. At almost any point in the day, I was ready to eat whatever I could get my hands on, but I didn’t. I chose wisely. It was my choice to make.
I want this process to be quick and easy, it’s not. As I reflect over the last 85 days, I know why. If it were easy, I would go back. The challenging nature of losing 129 pounds, is first to lose it, but really what’s most important, never gain it back. The sometimes daily battles help me to strengthen that resolve. I will never go back. This is not a drill.
I imagine that several of my Facebook friends have “unfriended” me out of sheer boredom with their Facebook page being filled daily with pictures of scales and stories of a bunch of overweight people fighting their way back to a healthy weight. That’s okay, do what you must.
For years, I’ve resisted posting almost any of my views on any subject to Facebook, I just didn’t want to make a fool of myself. Well I guess you could say that all changed. This Extreme Accountability Challenge has changed everything. You get all of me in regards to what this weight loss process is like, what my heart is daily. I really want to make a difference, maybe there is someone reading this that has lost hope, maybe 2 people, maybe more. I’m here to tell you, there is hope, you can get to a healthy weight again. I’m proof that it’s possible. But you have to face a real truth, there is no easy way. Stop looking for it. The lottery diet mentality has to stop. Stop looking for a diet that will instantly cause you to lose 100 pounds in 3 months with no work or sacrifice on your part. Changing lifelong habits takes work and perseverance. It’s going to be hard. I promise. But when you are searching for something to wear and everything you own is way too big and you are healthier and have more energy than you have had in years it’s worth it.
The fight is real, fight now for your health, not tomorrow, not Monday, not after the vacation, or the special occasion, no more putting it off, start right now, and don’t stop fighting for your health until you reach your destination weight, then fight everyday the rest of your life to stay healthy. Do it now, whatever it takes do it now.
It’s my and your choice, it always was.
Press forward.
175 pounds here I come!!!